Life: my take on it

Everyone's life is different. I don't know yours. I only know mine.

And mine goes something like this:

There are 3 seasons to my life.

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The Cake Walk

Some years are easy as pie. Everything seems to run it's course as planned. Things easily fall into place. I expect things to continue to be easy because, well, they've been that way for a while. During this season it's easy to stop looking up. To stop depending on God . To stop trusting that His way is best. I start trusting myself a little too much. I start getting pretty confident that life is easy because I deserve it. Because I'm so great. Because I deserve nothing less. This season may be filled with "great" things on the outside but I'm often left with a longing for something more.

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The Crap Shoot

The next season is filled with hardship More like crap, to tell you the truth. A steamy pile of crapola. Whether it's my own doing or not. Something snaps. Life gets messy all of a sudden. I freak out--sometimes only a little, and sometimes a whole-freaking-lot. Either way the "$@&* hits the fan". During this season I have two choices. I can either walk closer with God, or walk away from God. I've done both. Sometimes, this season can be so overwhelmingly difficult my eyes become so blurry and confused that I can't see the bigger picture. I think there's NO POSSIBLE WAY anything good can come out of it. So I tightly close my eyes, shake my head and choose to blame it all on God. I might not say that out loud. But, that's what my actions say. And sometimes during this season I can lift my head up just enough to see that maybe, possibly, God might actually have His hand in all of this (which He always does btw--I just might not see it at the time). If I can force myself to see Him in the smallest ways, then sometimes during this season I choose to seek Him. And when I painfully and finally give it to Him, I can breath again. This crappy season might not get easier but I'm able to trust that He has a plan in the end.

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The Chance to Grow

This last season happens only AFTER the first 2 seasons. I don't know why but that's the way it is (at least in my life). Sometimes I never make it to this season. I just flip-flop between the easy life and the hard life--missing the whole "growing season" all together. It seems so foolish looking back. I guess retrospect is all we have though. It's only after a season ends that you can understand it better. This growing season is when God starts bringing challenges my way. My own personal life may be going somewhat smoothly. My communication with God may be ongoing. My Bible studies may be getting deeper. My deep, godly friendships may be flourishing during this season. At the same time, I see Him bringing outside challenges into my life. It's usually not just one issue. If God is really trying to grow me, He will usually bring in multiple circumstances/ people all at the same time. It can be overwhelming! But, it can also be a season to show others the same comfort that Christ has shown me. This is the season I'm currently in. It can be extremely emotional and hard, but SO rewarding and fulfilling. There is much purpose during this time. There is much to praise the Lord for. There is so much to learn from His word. And there is so much to apply.

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I'm starting to understand each of these seasons a little better and how each one has a purpose. Maybe there's a fourth season and I just haven't discovered it yet. Who knows. I'm only 29 and I have a TON more to learn about life, God, and other people. 

But for now, that's what I got.

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Time for a big girl room!

Someone is getting pretty excited to switch into her big girl bed this weekend! She is still in her crib. Amazing I know. I'm not sure why but she has never attempted to climb out! Ever. It's crazy. But since she's turning THREE in September we decided it's time.

Long story short, we are getting a full-sized bed from my Mom to use as Kensie's new big girl bed! Since we have a small house there's no sense in storing it anywhere. So, we will take down the crib and move in her new bed all in one night! I'm kinda nervous how she'll do but we've been talking about it for several days now. My fellow mommy friends assure me she'll do just fine. Here's hoping all goes well!

Okay.

Now on to the fun stuff!

Here's where most (if not ALL) of my inspiration has come from...

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If you couldn't tell, we are going for FLOWERS, lots of COLOR, lots of different FABRICS.

I can't wait to get started.

Thanks for staying tuned in!

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Linking up to:

An annual event

It's been a scorcher this week with temps in the triple digits! This is not normal for Michigan. I can only imagine what it's like in the South--hang in there friends!

Thankfully Greg's family goes camping near a lake over the Fourth, which was perfect for such hot weather. We had a great time making day trips throughout the week but I'm sure happy to be home in the AC.
Whew!

Hope you had a great Fourth of July!

To my dear Kensie girl...

To watch you grow and learn and play,

is something I cherish every single day.

Your soft little voice is sometimes hard to hear,

but you capture my heart with every word, my dear.

You love to dance, play dress up, and "do" my hair,

but what I love most is what's deeper in there.

You have a heart and a soul that is beautifully wrapped,

in a God-given body that's already been mapped.

So take flight my sweet daughter,on this life that's fresh and new.

And I pray that God reveals himself in everything you do.

"For you know the plans I have for you", that's what the Bible reads.

And I pray you learn to seek Him, despite your wants or needs.

For this life is not an easy one, you'll hear that more and more.

But when you seek His face intently, you'll understand the word, "ADORE".

Love, 

the one you call "mama"

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Some summer updates...

It's true I grew up in California (yep that's a picture of me!) but I have to say that Michigan summers are the best--unless you're pregnant....then not so much. The sun stays up 'til almost ten o'clock and the lakes are pleasantly warm for swimming. I like to sit on the front porch just before bed and watch the fire flies in our front yard. A typical Michigan summer also includes getting just enough rain to keep the landscape looking nice and green (although it's unusually dry right now. We're praying for some serious rain!).

We live just a few minutes from Lake Michigan...isn't it gorgeous??...

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We are busy with life lately. Lots of fun and exhausting summer activities. Pools, lakes and splash pads are some of the kids favorites. Sunbathing and going to the beach are some of mine. And if Greg didn't have to be a grown-up and work to provide for our family he would spend his whole summer on the lake enjoying any kind of water sport you can think of. 

Kensie last summer--enjoying her first boat ride on Uncle Brad's boat.

We are definitely "beach" people. I love that we share that same joy. One day, we will live in a house on the water, with a dock and a boat, and have all kinds of friends and family over to enjoy it. Excuse me while I daydream for a moment....

Okay, I'm back. 

Just letting you know we are still here despite the lack of blogging lately. We are alive and well and enjoying life.

Happy summer!

Be nice to your windows

I gave our window in the fireplace room a little face-lift this weekend.

While Greg worked all day Saturday I got busy with some power tools! I needed something productive to help relieve my built up stress over the past week. I haven't been sleeping great, and you know that feeling when you can't seem to take a good, deep breath because your chest feels so tight?--yeah, I had that too. 

Well, it turns out that using a power drill can be a GREAT stress reliever...who knew!?

I loaded up the kids for a trip to Lowe's first thing Saturday morning. I love/ hate that place. So do the kids. I gave them every free pamphlet I could find in that store just to keep them busy flipping through the pages. Except they mostly just tossed them over the side of the cart for a fun game of "let's see how many times mommy can pick them up". I guess looking at pictures of fences, granite counter tops, and paint colors isn't as exciting for them? Weird. They were most excited when we walked down the rows of and rows of "potty chairs". Also weird, I know.

Anyway, did you know that Lowe's will trim your roman shade to the exact measurement of your window for FREE?

Pretty cool huh! I needed to fit a 54" wide window but the store only sold them in 48" OR 60". So I grabbed a 60" box, handed it off to a Lowe's employee, browsed the store for 30 minutes and then picked it up when it was DONE! So easy. It fits our window perfect! No fuss!

See that table runner? Funny side story. The roman shade was about 60" LONG, so I literally took scissors and cut the bottom off--making a PERFECT new runner for the dining table!

This window has been at a stand-still for quite some time, and it felt SO GOOD to finally finish it all by myself.

Here is another BEFORE...

I can't wait to show you the hutch (which is now all gray) and also in a different location!

And AFTER...

No more covering up this window with a bulky hutch. 

It's time to treat it right and let the light back in.

One last pic to show the roman shade down...

Happy Sunday my friends!

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linking up to:

Focus up Friday

It's been an emotional week over here. More on that in a minute....

I'm just popping in to say I've been trekking through the Proverbs 31 study and still going (kinda) strong! I'm so proud to say that even though I have missed a few days here and there, I've stuck with it and God is definitely teaching me A LOT.

Now for some random bullet points of my week (some related to the study and some are not). I'm not feeling very "eloquent" in my writing lately so bullets are what you get:

• I'm still struggling with the concept of vigorously cleaning my house. Living with an almost 3 year old and a 15 month old is exhausting. I don't need to re-hash exactly to what extent. It's just exhausting. And while I enjoy basking in my hard work of scrubbing my floors, putting the clutter away, making the bed, cleaning the bathroom.... I've also found this last week that I can become quite irritated by the end of the day as a result. If I find one dirty sock in the middle of the hallway, or a toilet that was left un-flushed, or a single dirty dish in the sink...after ALL MY GOSH DARN HARD WORK....well, husband/ kids...you better watch out. Crabby Shannon is gonna let you know it. But on the days when I only focus on laundry and dishes, and let the rest of the house kinda take it's "tornado-like" course, I rest much easier at night. Not sure where this is going. Just know, dear reader, that I'm struggling in this department. I want to honor God by working hard in the home, but I also want my sanity and my ability to love the people that live here too.

I spent one afternoon organizing my craft "crap hole". More on that later.
Something I've put off for at least 2-3 years.


• Mason got his first bloody nose this week. Kensie pushed his high chair over while he was still strapped in....and I lost it. I did not react well (unlike his last accident). I yelled at Kensie using phrases like, "What did you DO!"...."What were you THINKING!" My yelling combined with the large amounts of BLOOD streaming out of his nose made Kensie (and myself) a crying mess. I know accidents happen. I know you can't control them. But, it's easier to stay calm when there is no one else involved. Why on EARTH Kensie thought that was a good decision, I'll never know. But, it scared me to see how angry I got. I was able to talk with my mentor on the phone the next morning and felt reassured that my reaction was normal. However, there's still that moment when you need to ask for forgiveness. Forgiveness from my kids, and then from God. There was lots of praying the next day.

• Marriage is HARD for us. There's a million different reasons why marriage can be hard. This week it was scheduling. I had two nights in a row that I had to be somewhere at seven o'clock without kids. Between Greg working late every night, a last minute softball game, and a kid with a bloody nose, let's just say it was a stressful week! By ten o'clock each night, we were both finally in the same house together, exhausted, with nothing to say except "Goodnight". Most of my feelings toward Greg this week have been resentful, bitter, and just plain annoyed. Something else I need to still ask for forgiveness for. 

• Marriage is HARD for everyone. We all need to wake up and realize that it takes WORK to stay married to the same person for the rest of our lives. We have to be honest with our spouses, set appropriate boundaries with friends, and be willing to ask for help. Praying continually for our spouses doesn't hurt either. 

• I have a decision to make by this Sunday. God brought an opportunity to me a week ago. I have been weighing the pros and cons and asking God if this is the right timing for such an opportunity. I will share more next week once I make the decision. If you happen to think of me in the next two days, I would be SO incredibly grateful for some prayers. After the week I just had I feel like saying "ABSOLUTELY NOT!". But, I know that's just my emotions talking. I just want a clear answer from God--don't we ALL?

Have a great weekend everyone!